One of the things I was looking forward to the most when thinking about coming back was catching up with old friends, I spent so often reflecting on all the times and experiences that I’d missed..much as I do now thinking about Bahrain now..funny old world eh?
Anyway, once I landed on terra firma and got myself “back in the game” so to speak I was really pleased, lots of old faces I’d not seen for a while, and plenty of new ones too. There were a few friends in particular that I was really pleased to see again, especially as they were..well for want of a better phrase “best friends” I suppose, people that I’d missed more than the rest, ones that I’d loved to have been able to show the good times in the Middle East, and be able to talk to them in person through the not so good times. I was amazed to find that my old “going in town and getting bladdered” mate was now so settled….amazed in a good way though, I was chuffed to bits for him that he was married, settled in a nice house and with a new baby on the way. It was also nice to catch up with another best friend too, sure we’d had our moments but always came through in the end and it’s amazing to have someone you can talk to about anything and everything about!
In relation to this person in particular, there’s been numerous bits and bobs and different theories bounded around the ‘net about why we’re not very close anymore but to be honest, everyone’s entitled to their own opinion and I can’t dispute other people’s feelings. One thing is for certain though, the notion that I “shit on” anyone is a grave mis-judgement but that’s just how I feel. It’s hard to pin point what happened really; I came home and met up with this person a few times and it was great, and I had really missed it, I got introduced to many of her new circle of friends, some I’d known previously and others I didn’t and all was good. Once I’d started going out with a member of this circle, this person no longer seemed to want any part of knowing me (so it seemed to me at least). I continued to go out as I had done previously, and everytime I did, I’d invite her and get turned down, despite saying “there’s nothing wrong”. Now we spoke about it over and over via texts, email, phonecalls etc. and still the verdict was that everything was fine. Things came to a head around Christmas and New Year during her Birthday I guess. Interesting one this, and one that numerous different people have numerous different opinions on so I’ll state mine. A week or so after coming home I’d been invited to a New Year party by a couple I’d been introduced to through my friend, which to be honest was really nice and an opportunity to get to know them and everyone else a bit more. I’d only heard good things about them and from the brief times I’d met them they seemed sound and we got on ok so I thought why not?
Fast forward a few weeks to around Christmas and a group of us went out for this friend’s Birthday, now call me paranoid or whatever but my feeling was that for whatever reason (I suspected it was due to who I was with) I felt that everything was a bit awkward and that I perhaps wasn’t really as welcomed by some people as I first thought so in light of this I made a decision that it wouldn’t feel right attending the party with them. The last thing I wanted was any drama or increased awkwardness so I figured that’d be the sensible choice. A slating via the internet later and I discovered that it wasn’t ok though, the person involved felt hurt (which was by no means intended) as she thought I was snubbing them and being an arse hole for the sake of being elsewhere at New Year, which wasn’t the case at all. This person also implied that I’d “dropped my friend” for the sake of seeing my girlfriend, which I’ll be honest, incensed me as it really wasn’t the case. I spoke to both parties straight away and cleared up (I’d hoped) any confusion over the situation and where my friend was concerned I thought we’d got things straightened out and of the understanding that nothing had changed! After great lengths were made to avoid me in a hope I’d “disappear” by my this person I discovered on a chance trip to the pub that my presence wasn’t welcomed anymore which contradicted greatly with the other party’s sentiment that again…”everything was ok”.
So, the phone comes out once more as I still didn’t understand what the problem with me was and I thought that if anything, I was being dropped like a sack of shit for no apparent justifiable reason, other than the fact that people don’t agree with my choice of girlfriend. Now, considering that all parties involved already knew each other looong before I’d set foot in the country again and got on fine I found this a bitter pill to swallow However, I was told that it was me who’s the shit mate for socialising with certain people (despite the fact my friend was going out regularly with someone who used to be a lot more involved with her “enemy” than I was, so again it didn’t really wash…”Chloe” I believe??).
Again though, through effort from both sides we decided to put it behind us and go out as a group again which I was more than happy to do as I didn’t (and still don’t!) have a problem with anyone. I (stupidly) thought that it went ok, apart from the initial awkwardness but it’s been brought to my attention recently that as far as the other people involved are concerned it was awful hence I’ve never been invited out since. It doesn’t take a genius to figure out now that both my girlfriend and I will have been slagged off from arse-hole ’til breakfast time over all this but I’m big and ugly enough not to lose too much sleep over it, the thing that gets me is that to this day I still don’t really know what happened! I stand by my comment that I have no problem with anyone and that whether I have a boyfriend, girlfriend or make love to a 4 legged beasty has no bearing on how much time I have for my friends.
That lot may have seemed very long winded and detailed but it’s nice just to be able to let off some steam over it all, despite the fact that it’s pretty much a given that nobody involved will get to see it. I’ve had contact with this friend briefly over recent months and it’s been ok, I can’t deny I miss it or more correctly “how it was” but at that time I didn’t realise her true opinion of the matter…..now I do. It’s pretty clear that I’m not very well received by her or her “married friends” which is pretty much as I suspected from the start, but I’ve got a good bunch of mates who like me for me and don’t summise their opinions based on who I go out with so it’s each to their own on that one. If people actually took the time to get to know me instead of rushing to conclusions then perhaps they’d realise there are a lot worse people about!! To those that already knew me………well, they should know better.
Hmm….maybe I should get my phone out again
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